I have 2 best friends: there name is Sam and Via...
If you asked me to whom am I closer with, i will really tell that I'm closer to Via...but when I asked others if who they think I'm closer, they would tell me that they think, I'm closer to Sam...well, if closeness physically, I'm really closer with Sam..she's my seatmate, and she really have the same interests like me..but even though she's one of my best friends, sometimes she really push me to the limit that I want to tell her I don't want to be her best friend and no one will ever like her if she continue acting like a spoiled brat...
Sam is my very first best friend since freshmen year...during the first day of school, she was seated beside me....my first impression of her was a spoiled girl who knows nothing about sensitivity of others...and guess what, I'm right...but we still became best friend..i don't know what really happened why she became my best friend...its just that she offer me free drinks on our lunch, we had some little chat, then Baam, were best friends. Were always seen together. She's always with me, I'm always with her. Were often found at the library that time, borrowing books and exchanging stories about what we just read.
Sam and I were the exact opposite...I'm the shy one and she's boost in confidence, I'm the smart one, and she's the studies-is-not-important girl. But were still best friends....Then, one thing I really notice about our friendship is that she's always jealous of me...not to the point that she would really do something to hurt me, but to the point that she would really do something to surpass me..and this incident happen...
I am fixing my wallet that time...and I am really sure I put it in my bag...I go to the CR after that and when it is our dismissal time, my wallet is gone! I don't know what to do that time! I don't care about my money, I don't care about my pictures! What I care is my test permit receipt!! I cant take the exam if I don't have my receipt! And I inserted it in my wallet! God! Then it strike me...I figure it out that Sam got my wallet...because tomorrow morning, she got this one heck of money..my speculations started there so I give distance between me and Sam...I don't want to be friends with a thief...so, my friendship between Sam ended there, and my friendship with Via bloom. My freshmen year ended and I still didn't reconcile with Sam, but she already know that I'm blaming her for what happened. I don't care, because of her, my parents really got angry with me, I take the exams late, and my grades really got affected by that.
When the second year finally arrive, Sam act like nothing really happened. The anger with me is gone that time, so we are best friends again this time. The three of us actually. But this sophomore year in my life, my section is mixed with other students from the other section last year. And now, there's Mateo, a girl who got real close with Via. And I cant do something about that..I just let them, and now I got stuck with Sam. Our previous relationship as friends return, and now I'm happy with her. But there are this happenings that still happen. I lost my assignments, my money, my ballpens, even my book!! I don't know why this is happening with me. This things stop when I ended my friendship with Via started and my friendship with Sam ended. But now that we are friends again, this things are happening again...will you blame me if I accuse her last year??
And also, there are this things that I also notice. Our interests are only alike. We both love books ad surfing the Net. But besides that, there is nothing more we have in common. And she always leave me during our break time, which leaves me nothing to do. She always tell my other friends about the things I'm telling her. And God knows how much I hated it when she do that. I'm beginning to think if my friendship with her is really worth it. I'm thinking, always thinking what my life would have turn out if she's not my best friend. I'm always wondering that things. I have this need of her, a feeling that I cant live without her. She and I are really close, but there are this things that would really keep our bonds apart. I don't know....i don't know what to do...
Do you think Sam is really a true friend after doing those things to me? Do you think she is still worth of the faith I'm giving her? These question, I don't know yet the answers...who knows?? Maybe she'll change...and who knows?? Maybe one day, she'll be aware of everything, every single thing she's doing to me..My own best friend....i really cant believe this things are happening to me......
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